Sunday, February 7, 2010

Up and Down and Up and Down

I like a plan. I really, really want a plan. We have a good one going now and I've enjoyed the fantasy that I know what/where/how life will be for a few months.

Several years ago I felt like my life was too boring and predictable and I craved adventure and variety. Now I want stability and predictability more than most anything else. A side-effect of parenthood, perhaps?

A few days ago my husband got a note from someone inviting him to consider a new ministry opportunity. He seemed excited about the idea but I wanted to smash his computer and unplug the telephone. I couldn't sleep that night. At midnight I was the on the couch with a blanket over my head to muffle the sound of my screaming. I cried so hard my nose bled and then I was in the laundry room spraying stain remover on said blanket.


  1. Oh, honey. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I wish I could be a shoulder for you. Do you have a shoulder(s)?


  2. Thank you. God has blessed me with lots of shoulders and with a lot of support through this blog. Thanks for reading and for caring.



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