Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Crazy

A few weeks ago I wrote that a congregation had called my husband. He has accepted the call. That is (of course!) good news. It also has the potential to make me completely insane.

By the end of the summer, we will have packed and unpacked our entire house, live in a new community, my kids will be in new schools, we will all be getting acquainted with a new congregation and a new schedule, and I will be visiting an oncologist twice a month for therapeutic poison-drips. Nothing on that list appeals to me. Every bit of it has come to me unbidden.

Here's the crazy part: I am not freaked out. I am, today, entirely calm. I feel content about accepting the call and making the move. I feel confident that God is guiding us there and that He will provide what we need as we need it. I am almost rolling my eyes at myself as I write this because it sounds so pious.

I feel like I am witnessing my own death and resurrection. I surrender. I give up on trying to figure out my life and make it work right. I'll focus on today and thank God for giving me the grace to trust that He will provide everything I need when tomorrow gets here.

5 comments:

  1. Hurrah for you! I don't think you sound pious at all. Calm acceptance of where we are right now is a precious gift. Enjoy the moment.

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  2. It's so good to hear that God is blessing you with an abundant measure of His peace that passes all human understanding! He will continue to provide all that you need to support this body and life. I'm happy and excited for you and your family's new beginnings.

    Sara in WI

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  3. I will be prying for you and your family. We have just made it through our first year in a new place and it's been one heck of a year. I pray that you will make some great friends right away who will love you and care for you and make you laugh. I pray that God will use this time to encourage you.

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  4. I admire your faith! Something I need to work on.

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  5. You all are so kind. @jerri - I'm sure if I had *tried* to be like this, it would have been something altogether different. indeed, if my life were going along smoothly and then a move or cancer came along, I would be angry. Something about being completely drained and then having still one more thing go awry... i'd either be trusting God or in complete despair. Praise God for the trust.

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Thanks for using this space to share your encouraging words.